Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Storm after the calm!

It has been a whole year since I dabbled last. I know some of you have enjoyed the peace- I know who you are, I will find you! I cannot help but write in spurts, my discipline to write (among other things) is dismal, but once a year is not never! Today I feel my age, I feel grown up. I am aware of how each experience has molded me, left its impression on me. I know I am not as carefree as I used to be - and I know how some things weigh on me. But, I feel less apologetic about who I am today, I am at peace with where I am (even though it is nowhere close to where I eventually want to be), I am content today. I value relationships more today, know my true friends and know myself. I did not think that peace was possible after losing dad, perhaps it isn't but a compromise, a realisation that life must and will meander forth. So with this new realisation forged, I walk on, forward and toward a new dawn.. I am back!

A breath.. too short

Another restless night,
Hopeless wondering,
Faithless musing;
And all for naught.

A broken dream,
Each painful day,
A shard of sparkling glass.

Vibrant colours dance together,
Each part a part of a whole,
So tightly woven, so strongly bound,
One gaping hole to haunt.

Each passing dawn,
Each weeping dusk,
Drags me forward,
But my spirit stayed with that day.

Walking on diamonds,
So lucky, so charmed,
But I walk alone.

A sunset beckons,
Dawn of a new decade,
I want to carry you on,
And I don't know how.